On October 6th, in the early afternoon my PCP calls and I need to schedule an appointment for my flu shot and a consult.  She tells me she has received the biopsy report and I schedule an appointment for Wednesday, October 8th at 9:00am.

I arrive at 9:00am for my flu shot and cancer consult. More tears as my PCP explains I have four tumors, one of which is cancerous.  She also explains that this is a tumor that can’t be removed through surgery (referred to as a lumpectomy) because the tumor has tentacles that resemble spider legs.  As I am leaving the office her staff is calling a breast surgeon to schedule an appointment.

I’m trying really hard to remain cheerful and optimistic but I have my moments where I just break out crying.  I’ve been praying almost non-stop and I believe God has a purpose.  I need to rely on God to guide me on this journey.  He knew my life before I even drew my first breath.  As I pray a calmness and peace washes over me.  Over and over a scripture keeps running through my mind: “whatever work it is you are doing, be busy in the work of the Lord.”